A Breakup During Pregnancy Actually Helped Me Come to Terms with Being a Mom
I’m not going to lie, I was scared when I found out I had been pregnant.
My first thought was “What if it’s stillborn?”
or worse, something even worse like Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS). But then after much soul searching and prayer, God spoke to me through His Word and gave me hope that this baby would live. And He did!
After giving birth to our son, I couldn’t wait to get back into the swing of things. I wanted him to grow up in a stable home where he could have all the love and attention he needed. So I started looking for a job again. Unfortunately, finding work wasn’t easy since there were so many new moms coming out of maternity leave and staying at their jobs just because they didn’t want to lose their benefits.
My husband and I both worked full time jobs to support our growing family. When we finally decided to take a vacation day off, we had planned to go on a long drive down the coast with our son. However, one night while driving along the highway, my car suddenly lost control and flipped over several times before landing upside down in some brush. Fortunately nobody was hurt but I certainly felt very sad about losing my job and having to start all over again. It was just so easy to say “screw it” and turn back into a stay at home mom.
After several months had passed, my car was still sitting upside down in the brush by the side of the interstate. I decided that I just couldn’t take looking at the wreckage anymore. My self confidence was gone and I felt extremely depressed about my life. So one day, I decided to move my car from the brush and drive it out. It worked!
Now the car was sitting in front of my house instead.
I felt so much joy after seeing that car that I started thinking “why stop there?”
So the next day, I got up and went straight to the dealership. A week later, I walked out with a brand new car! Now, I really felt like things were starting to look up for me.
Things actually did get better from there, but not without some interesting effects from what I had done.
When I stopped at a red light one day, a helicopter came from out of nowhere and landed right on top of my car. The pilot came out and asked me if I would like a free ride to the Grand Canyon.
I thought about it for a minute and decided “Why not?” I mean, why not enjoy life?
As soon as we passed over the Grand Canyon, I was amazed by how beautiful everything looked from up there.
After a lovely sight-seeing tour, the helicopter let me off on the side of the road and flew away. I was sad to see it go but happy to be standing on solid ground again. As I looked around, I noticed that I was in a small town with only a few houses and shops. The main road even had horse manure scattered all over it!
The next day, I got on a bus and went back to the city where I originally lost control of my car. A few days later I was offered my old job back but turned it down since I had found a new one in the time that I was away. My family and friends were very happy to see me again and couldn’t wait to hear about all of the wonderful things that I had seen during my little vacation.
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